Forward with Faith
Like so many, Jeanine has experienced her share of ups and downs… Actually, that’s not true. Any would agree she’s experienced far more than her share of downs, though she’d never make such a statement. She has a calm acceptance about her, despite all she’s been through. It’s a quiet, unassuming strength. We feel beyond humbled and honored to know that Jeanine attributes some of that strength and her healing to our studio and the training she does here.
The life Jeanine knew would forever be altered the day her son took his own life 18 years ago. He was just 16 years old.
“There are no words to describe…,” Jeanine said, trailing off in thought. She continued by saying, “The pain is unimaginable. It was 18 years ago and is always going to be with me.”
Any parent would agree that losing a child is the ultimate loss. A heartache so unimaginable that we don’t even allow our thoughts to go to such sadness. A sadness Jeanine knows and lives with every day.
Her heartbreak continued the day her husband was in a motorcycle accident 10 years ago. It left him a paraplegic. Jeanine stays by his side, acting as his primary care giver.
A Path to Healing
Such sadness left Jeanine feeling emotionally broken. Her son suggested she try Bikram Yoga at a studio near where they lived in California.
“I went to yoga several times at this studio but didn’t go back. It wasn’t welcoming. It was the opposite of the studio we have here.”
It wasn’t until Jeanine moved to Utah in 2012 that she gave Bikram Yoga another try.
“I signed up for the 21 days for $21 special. I’ll be honest. After the first class, I probably wouldn’t have stuck with it, but I wanted to get my money’s worth. After my fourth visit, my thinking began to change and I felt ‘I can do this!’ Plus, everyone was so warm and welcoming, which made it all easier. Today, I'm fully committed and go 2-3 times a week.”
Opening a Broken Heart
Jeanine felt the full weight of her heavy heart as she started practicing the Camel pose. It’s an emotional pose, and her emotions were keeping her from it.
“Whenever I’d try to do the Camel pose, I’d get dizzy and feel like I was going to pass out. My son would always come rushing to my mind. Camel is an emotional pose. You’re on your knees, bent backwards, and forced to open your heart and your lungs wide. When you’re grieving, you aren’t that open. You’re closed. And your lungs are weakened.”
It wasn’t until about a year ago that Jeanine finally experienced a shift. Suddenly, she could do Camel!
“I could do it! It was very healing emotionally.”
Sometimes You Want to Go Where Everybody Knows Your Name
Our studio has offered Jeanine a community where she feels accepted. It’s wonderful how people with different stories, from different walks of life, can come together in the hot room and feel a connection and togetherness.
“It’s such a positive, upbeat place. You’re greeted by your first name and know people really feel interested in you. It’s led to lasting friendships that extend outside of yoga.”
Emotionally, Jeanine says our studio offers her a sanctuary—a place to go and step away from the world for a bit and focus on her. On healing.
“Being in the hot room allows me to connect with myself and a higher power. I pray when laying on my back and feel a sense of calm.”
Physically, Jeanine has also experienced great change, which she feels Bikram Yoga has contributed to. She’s lost 30 pounds. She’s more flexible. She’s stronger.
“Being my husband’s caregiver, I have to be very careful in how I help him, which means staying physically strong for both of us. My husband is incredibly supportive of my yoga and sees the strength it gives me. And I’ve discovered a shift in what I can do. Things are possible for me.”
Things ARE possible for you, sweet Jeanine!
It is stories like this that leave us humbled and thankful we’re here, doing what we do. Knowing we have a small part in Jeanine’s continued healing is priceless. Her outlook on life, positive attitude, and warm heart add so much to our community. This October marks her four-year anniversary at Bikram Yoga at Brick Canvas. What a gift these years have been for us. Thank you for sharing your story, Jeanine, and bringing your loving light into our lives.